YEAH~! :D

Haha way to go Darrell! SO glad you have sorted out what you feel inside and even came up with a solution! :D Haha and btw maybe you don't know this but when you said that people didnt see you the way you really are and like noone understands you, maybe you are not the only one. For example, you feel that people dont understand you or dont know you, for all you know maybe you ALSO dont really know who he really is or how he is feeling deep down inside. You spoke of the "mask" like it was something like uncommon, but maybe, just MAYBE, everyone ELSE has that EXACT same "mask".

 "Trust me, I’m just a kid that doesn’t know what he is doing until he realized what he have done. I got no plans, no vision, no complicated mindset. I’m simple, trying to act chime and secretive, that’s all." <<< For all you know EVERYONE is like that. So i guess just know that whatever you are feeling, you are never alone..

Maybe this may come as a surprise or something, but this is something about me i want to share with you: Out of ALL the hundreds of people i EVER knew in my LIFE. My family, my friends, my enemies, ANYONE, there is not ONE SINGLE (mortal) person in this entire world that i can stand infront of, hold my head high, and say "this is me" proudly without lying. Seriously. Noone in this world (not you, not joshua, not lander, not isaac, not my dad or my mom or my bro) knows all my flaws. Noone knows all my secrets. Noone knows how i think, how i feel inside, what i b!tch i was in primary school or what are the greatest demons inside me that i have to face day after day. Demons that i have very little confidence in overcoming. I hope that as time goes by, maybe you will be the first.. Haha.. But yeah, just know that you are normal, and you are never alone.

You said that you really hate admitting this and stuff, but Darrell, there is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of, just something to be proud of. Because of all the people who have this problem, maybe you are the only one who dares to admit it..

So yeah just keep this line in mind: Accept that you're not perfect, but believe that you are.

(May seem like abit of contradiction haha.. But if you dont know what it means then can ask me i'll explain to you. i promise it will make sense)

And again: I'm very glad you have sorted things out. :D