Could see that you were very much affected by the discussion... In what sense, I'm not sure... Maybe you saw the harsh side of me, not even contemplating a moment when I decide the fate of a player, by telling Mr han to kick him out of the team? Or maybe you realise something else? I really dunno... Can't tell but could feel that you were feeling upset.
That is me. I simply speak the truth. I may seem friendly with everybody but when it's something that concerns the team, I will not hesitate a moment to kick the player out if he is cannot make it. If I want the team to do well, somebody have to be the bad guy; I'm willing to do anything for the team.
If I wasn't the captain or ask nothing more from the team, I will definitely shut up but this time round is different, we got a high chance to get Top 4 and I simply can't let the team down.
And that includes you. I knew I was harsh when I sorta " tell you that you weren't good enough" but I have to let you know it. You are crucial to the team. The team needs you, we need you too.
The chair and table thing, Think you meant that you are just there to block out the shots, other than that, you are useless. If that's the way you think, you are wrong. A keeper ain't just there to block out the shots. He is there to give support to the whole team; cose when the shot fly past the defenders and is approaching the keeper, we know that we can all count on Eugene, cose we know he will save the shot.
You are not small, neither are you useless. If there was one player that is gonna pull out of the team and the team will screw up, that would be you. I'm not even close, there's joshua to continue leading the team, cren to take over me. Eugene Gan is nowhere near your standard, without you, we will be CHS floorball (with the goal post unprotected). Your role is the most important among ALL of us, that is why I'm so particular about your performance, your skill and everything. That is why I said whatever I said that there. If Derek or Ryan is going London for 3 weeks, I don't think the impact will be that big but if you miss 3 weeks of training, the impact will be very big cose there is nobody there to replace you. We need you.
Somebody have to be the bad guy, somebody have to do all those 'harsh' decisions if we want the team to excel. I took up the role as captain not for fun, not for glory, but for the team be'cose I believe the team can excel under my guidance better than anyone else. If there were to be a better candidate, I would willing give up this post. it ain't easy to be the captain you have to know. I wouldn't be like Dickson, captain in name, does nothing at all. Since I took up this role I will do my part well.
I really don't like the feeling when somebody, older than you by 1 year or even the same age as you, decides your future in floorball by saying " He's not good enough." Who likes it anw... for your fate to be somebody else's hands. By I only say the truth. Those that are good stay and those that are not there, I'm sorry. There will bound to be something like this happening sooner or later.
Whatever I did, i put the team as the first priority, even before myself. If my knee is unfit for floorball, I will not hesitate to kick myself out of the team, cose I would be a burden already. My job ain't easy if I want to do it well, this team is special, we got the ability but can't excel. There is much more that I want to say, all my misery being the captain, but I wouldn't grumble, I will hang in there for the sake of the team. Many things I do, nobody realises. The agony of having to suffer 10+ people staring at you dancing like a retard before they agree reluctantly to dance too, is one of the many few.
I'm only doing my part, hope you understand. I'm really considering to play an individual sport in the future, a team sport is more than a sum of individual skills... there is so much more to it. An individual sport is so much easier, so much easier for me to excel, without the burden of everybody on me...
Gene... just remember, you are the most important key, I'm not joking. You have to pick yourself up and train to be stronger. Your greatest opponent is yourself, your thinking will kill you someday.
